Stop acting like you live twice.

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Lift other women up. It’s more important than you think.

As women, we are conditioned at a young age to look pretty, play by the rules, be ladylike, act appropriately, fit in. Not to mention being sexualized from the moment we develop breasts, or even earlier than that for those of us who have unfortunately experienced abuse at a young age.

Catcalls on the street, sexual harassment at work, inappropriate behavior from men we thought were friends, overall pressure from society… all environments and situations women are exposed to lead to a 24/7 hypnosis of degradation.

In a world that continues to place women (and minorities) on a 2nd tier, it’s important to lift each other up. Equality is a systemic battle, but it may begin by overcoming the internal one of the mind.

Go ahead– like and comment “YAASSS” on that fly selfie, praise that woman at work, hug strangers in the bathroom, stand up for those who have been conditioned not to speak, have some f*cking self-control/respect and don’t “steal” that woman’s bf/fiance/husband, support women-owned businesses, support woman-focused movies and shows, mentor young women, or even just be unapologetically confident for the sake of being a role model in your right. It is your duty. Pave the way.

Confidence in ourselves and demanding respect for each other is a key component of ending the cycle. We may not be equal in a world of men yet, but we sure as hell have no excuse not to uplift each other.

It takes a village.

 

Deeper.

There’s this guy. ( I know, I know.) I’ve been avoiding trying to catch feelings for him, because he’s long distance. And to be honest, I can’t distinguish between if it’s fantasy or real, since 90% of our interactions have been on the phone due to distance. We agreed since we don’t want to do long distance, that we would try to decrease the communication since things would get confusing.  I hate to say it, but the decision is affecting me and it sucks.

Which led me to a realization today —

Deep down inside, I think I’m afraid of being alone. I thought my biggest fear was fear of failure or not achieving the lofty goals I have for myself, but maybe it’s rooted in this one. The fear of not being fully loved. Of not finding a romantic (and attractive lol) partner who gets me and wants to ride out life together.

So when someone promising comes along, I hold tight. Tighter than normal and probably definitely tighter and longer than I should. And while I’ve grown leaps and bounds in self-love, I still recognized this fear lingering in my heart today.

So I did what any normal human would do. I Googled it.

Here’s what I found:

Darlene Ouimet, Emergingfrombroken.com (Full post)

(I haven’t read her book, I just came across this on her website)

The truth is that people cannot determine my value. I had to learn to determine my own value by realizing just “HOW” I had been defined as less valuable. The truth is that people do not have the right to define me as good enough or not good enough. Each human being has equal value; I just had to look at lies I believed in order to realize they were in fact LIES. I believed that people, my family and my friends could determine my value by the way they regarded me. But this isn’t a truth. I had to stop believing that people could validate me or invalidate me. The truth is that personal value is not based on what I can do for others especially when there is no mutuality involved as had been the case in my life.

My damaged self esteem began to heal when I realized that it wasn’t ME who caused the damage to it in the first place.

Learning to love started with me, learning to love me. It was about being good enough for me. It was about accepting myself but I couldn’t do that until I faced where the “not good enough” messages came from. Little did I know that through facing this truth, I would find my value and my lost identity.  Through that process I was able to embrace myself the way that I had been longing for others to embrace me

Read This If You’re Worried That You’ll Never Find ‘The One’ – Heidi Priebe (Full post)

If you knew, with indisputable certainty, that love was never going to be yours, how would you live your life differently? What about your daily routine would you alter? What about your long-term plans?

… The idea that someday somebody will love all our flaws is a subtle excuse not to work on them. The principle of two halves making a whole restrains us from becoming our own better half. We want someone to swoop in during our darkest hour and save us, but what if we knew they never would? We’d have to start doing everything differently.

… Without the fear of ending up alone, the opportunities open to you would become endless. You could live on every continent. You could scale the corporate ladder. You could go back to school and get that degree you’ve always felt interested in, without worrying about the financial burden your debt may place on somebody else.

… Stop looking for The One to spend the rest of your life with. Be The One.

And let everybody else come searching for you.

Thanks Google. =)

 

My 6th grade self wrote a poem to my future self.

Why am I always happy?
Would you rather always be sad?
Sadness is a monster, it will soon turn bad
Happiness is Everlasting, you will never get enough
Happiness helps the mind survive when the times are tough
So always be happy and pass it on to every friend
Encourage them to pass it on too
Then the happiness will never end!